Tuesday, July 25, 2000 Burdens and one
Has
it ever seemed like your presence is a burden to others? Well, I am sure
that the answer is yes, because everybody has felt that way at one point
in time. It just seems like people are always worried about whether the
person they're with really wants to be with them at that moment. My Opa
has always felt that it was too much of a burden when he came and visited
us, even though he stays in the vacant apartment below us, so we don't
have to spare any room, and he doesn't realize that it is way more of a
burden for us to have to travel 130 miles to visit him in 100 degree weather.
It's funny how people's minds work.
I had a terrible dream last night. I dreamt that Rachel Monas, Q(I am going to call this person Q to spare the real person any feelings if they happen to stumble across this page), and one other person (I forget who) were mad at me, and we were all at Natalie's house (except it was much much bigger) and there were lots of celebrities there. I told Q and the other person I didn't really care what happened to them, but I couldn't stand having Rachel Monas mad at me. Rachel was mad in my dream because I had called her a bitch. Don't ask. I don't know why.) The three people kept running away from me, and ignoring me, and when I found them in one room , they would leave for another, until finally they listened and I told Q and the other off, and I told Rachel that I couldn't stand it if we weren't friends. I kept thinking that after that it would be so hard to be friends, and that this dream must be to show me how much my friendship with Monas means to me. Now that I think of it, Alexis and I were looking for Daddy in the beginning of the dream and there was a really steep hill, but we ended up at this building, and when we went in, we separated and never ended up finding each other again. I did end up finding Rachel Paterno-Mahler, and she said she had to walk home, so she borrowed my shoes. Her shoes were these puffy bright purple ones made by KCET. But then all of a sudden, Natalie's Nana and her previous one, Dolores showed up asking me if I wanted to help set up for the dinner, and I ended up surprising Natalie in her room. Then all the celebrities came, and Rachel, Q, the other person and I think maybe another person who wasn't mad at me just showed up. It's not often I can remember a dream, and I think the purpose of me remembering this one was to make me think about how important my friendship with Rachel is. Well, that may have been hard to understand, seeing as my brain is very weird and does weird things sometimes, but I think you get the point, right? There
are those
But
there's a house that i know
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